I was bleedind again, all tough it's forbidden.
I spilled some alcohol on my wounds.
"oh god, it hurts"
slowly I fall asleep while I continued  bleeding.
suddenly, I was smaller. while looking around I realized that I was at the play ground with a nother person.
he's imege was too dark to see his face.
but I smiled and pointed at the swing.
I said someting, then giggled and the next thing I know is that I'm back on the floor in my room.
I stood up and looked on the bloody floor.
I felt sad and ashamed.
"This is not a solution!"
I've never met the man in my dream.
but somehow I knew who he was.
I smiled all the time while cleaning the floor and taking care of my injuries.
although they burned like hell, I smiled.........









maybe we'll meet some day.....untill then, I must stay alive.......